WWYD?

So, the question is, What would you do?

For your entire life, you had a dream. A dream that many people said was stupid, silly, and pointless. But to you, felt like the only real thing in your life. Your dream got you through some terrible classes and some awful days. It allowed you to get through the years, feeling like you were aiming toward something. Something huge.

Again, What would you do?

What would you do if you finally got to a point where things seem to be falling into place, but EVERYTHING goes wrong? As an outsider, it's easy to say "keep your head up" or "it'll all work out" or every other cliche you tell someone as they are essentially fighting for their dream -- but feels like they are fighting for their life.

Here's the deal. I have worked and worked and tried and tried to get to today. And I did that. I can own that. (Anyone who says the journey IS the destination is just trying to prepare you for not actually reaching the destination...) I saved all my money by keeping my eye on the prize. (The prize being making a life for myself in NYC.) Time, and of course, money has run out. I've also regained 15-20 pounds since moving here, and thanks to a few injuries, I've lost the ability and motivation to work on that...but that is really not the point here...I have bigger worries and concerns.

But the journey of getting to this point isn't enough for me. I want the destination. I want a fabulous career in beauty and communications. I want to earn a living so that I may stay in NYC. I want my injuries to disappear so that I can resume what I was finally successful at last year -- losing weight. Is that too much to ask?

So what does one do? Where does one go? Who does one talk to about this stuff? It sounds petty to someone who knows they will get a paycheck. It sounds nutsy to even consider that homelessness could be a possibility. It seems ridiculous that education and experience (two things that I thought "no one could ever take away from you") were meaningless to people who could hire you.

I do consider myself super lucky in that I have people who believe in me and my dream, even when I've *basically* lost hope. The problem with that is that doesn't pay the rent. Or buy real groceries.

I know this is my space on the interwebs to talk about what I want, but the truth is, this isn't what I want to talk about. This sounds desperate and whiney. Two things I don't consider myself. I need to focus on what I can control. So, what would you do if you felt like there was nothing within your power? What would you do if your dream job seems as if it's at your fingertips, but you know in the back of your head that if it doesn't happen, then what? And what do you do when it just feels like your heart is breaking more and more each and every day?

These multiple questions are meant to be rhetorical, but for one last one, What would you if everything felt right -- that you were finally on your way to achieving a wonderful career of your dreams, but you were all out of money and thus, out of time? WWYD?