I Fell In Love With a Wonderful Woman

At some point, I fell in love with this awesome woman last year. I'm not sure what day, month, or moment it happened, but it did. And it was truly awesome.

She was incredible. She was adventurous. She was trusting. She was loving. She was beautiful. She was learning what life meant to her. And then, my time in Japan ended. We stayed in touch for a while, but now, and only for now, it's over. I fought to keep the relationship together, but none of my efforts were rewarded.

Oh yeah, did I mention it was me?

This blog is meant to capture what life is like when you live it without giving in to all the blahs out there. But, that's not reality. There are a lot of blah moments. And for the time being, I'm in the middle of a huge one.

I'm trying to win that relationship with that incredible, adventurous, amazing woman I got to know last year back, but the reality of my situation has gotten in the way of that. I'm not big on excuses (something she taught me), but things are just not going in my favor. I'm not going to get into it all right here, right now - but I need some luck. Some really good luck. Just so I can get back in touch with her again. I miss her dearly.

My time and money (and thus, my motivation) is waning...and quickly. I came here to capture my dream and it's slipping through my fingers. My energy level is down and it's hard to have a decent relationship with anyone when you don't have the motivation and energy to deal with your day-to-day stuff.

I'm a good, hard-working person. I've got the education (and probably too much of it, which may be the problem). I've got the self-confidence in the work that I'm capable of doing. I've got the personality. I've even got the motivation and energy when I feel needed. But I don't feel that way. I've stepped away from my social network for the most part because without her around, I just don't feel like telling everyone that my relationship is over via social networking. (Although, I do recognize that's what I'm doing now.)

I know that I can get back in touch with her. I know that she is out there waiting on my call. I know that we will have a long-term relationship. I just need a few things to go my way (instead of the other way), so that I can build that relationship up again. It will take some fighting and some time - but I'm willing to do it. I just need a little luck (and a job) to lift my spirits and remind me why that relationship is so darn important again.