What's my deal?! (duplicate entry)

I wrote the entry below in my healthy living blog, but it really belongs in here too. Part of really living my life the way I want is to focus on doing things that make me happy. Getting healthy and losing weight is something that makes me happy. Thus, this entry truly belongs here.

Ok, so I've been going through a lot of changes in my life over the past few months. Like, a LOT. I need to cut myself some slack because of it; however, I reviewed my weight pattern and I've been hovering the same weight since DECEMBER! WTF?!

So all the changes. First I'll go there. Not to make excuses, but to get a full understanding of the circumstances. January. Johnny left Japan. Most of the boozing occurred with him around. When he left at the end of the month, I was really sad, but also realized some big changes were about to occur because of his departure. February. I quit smoking. I started talking to a fella from my past on a daily basis. I started to prepare for my departure from Japan. That's a lot for the shortest month of the year. I mean, for real. March. I had to clean my apartment in Japan. (Ya'll I'm a clean person and I'm all about a clean house, but these people had me cleaning until 4am every day and it still wasn't as clean as they would've liked. Geez.) I moved into a hotel. I had to train the incoming teacher. I had to say a bazillion goodbyes. I cried a lot. I moved back to America. I did a 10K race. Whew. And I was sick when I got back to America. Both in my head and chest, and in my tummy. April. I traveled a lot: my hometown to my former town to my hometown to Texas to my hometown to NC to my hometown to NYC. All this in the course of 2.5 weeks. Yeah.

So I've been in NYC for a week now. I feel frickin lazy. I want to believe that it's ok for me to catch up on sleep and rest and all that jazz, but I feel so flippin lazy and gross. I did workout twice this week, which was crazy considering how I've felt, but I still managed to gain 2 pounds. I'm eating pretty healthily for the most part. My building's food is pretty decent and I eat lots of fruit & veggies. (Although I ate TERRIBLY today.) That being said, I'm still trying to figure out how to get 3+ meals out of 2 (that I'm allowed to have; that's included in my rent) and counting calories is next to impossible. I don't know what to do. I'm trying to figure out a good workout option for myself since I need to have a good reason to get out of the building since I'm so sedentary here. Gyms seem like good options, but do you know how many gyms are in NYC?! Holy moley! I think I'm going to test run a few of them out with free guest passes and then make an informed decision. All this is on the forefront of my racing mind.

Oh yeah, I'm also trying to find a job. Crap.