It's not a case of the blah's.

As my first week in NYC comes to an end, I couldn't help but feel like a phony. I felt like I had created this blog with the best of intentions, but in fact, I wasn't living my life truly anti-blah. This whole week, I've actually felt like I've lived my life blah-ful. In hindsight, I see that was a blah way of thought, but I am living my life anti-blah. (Get that? Yeah, that's what my head has been doing all week.)

Reflecting on the week, I thought the only productive thing that I had actually done was create this blog. While, that was a productive thing to do, it was in no way, shape, or form, the ONLY productive thing that I completed. These are some things that I did that were productive:

- created this blog
- unpacked
- made this place more of a home
- got over my fear of taking the subway by myself at night
- walked the streets of NYC as if I owned this place (confidence is a must here)
- met with my contact/pen pal that I've been communicating with for 1.5 years
- hung out with my local alumni club
- bought my first little black dress
- went to a fundraising gala to raise money for kids in Uganda
- met a few women in my field of interest
- chatted with a friend I hadn't spoken actual words with in years
- walked around downtown and explored
- watched a basketball game on 4th Street (supposedly the best street ball around)
- met and hung out with some interesting people
- job hunted
- went to the grocery store a couple of times
- rested
- ate balanced meals
- worked out twice
- researched local gyms
- signed up to attend an event in few weeks in Central Park

This list is not exhaustive or meant to serve much purpose except to show that although I felt pretty lazy (i.e. blah) because I did spend a LOT of time in my room, I did do quite a bit. I have to admit too, I had forgotten a lot of these things until now. It's a wonderful thing to remember the good that we do. To really live life anti-blah, you have to remember that stuff...the good stuff. It's too easy to remember the "bad" things we do. (i.e. eating foods that aren't good for us, drinking too much booze, not sleeping enough, sleeping too much, not working out enough, blah, blah, blah.)

I really needed a reminder that even though this week was pretty uneventful, I'm still living my life ant-blah. Just low-key for right now! And, that's absolutely ok. I needed the rest. I've been go-go-go for how long now? Too freaking long. So, resting a lot is what my body needed. And I listened! How anti-blah is that?! Very.

Instead of focusing on what I could have done this past week, I am going to focus on what I can and will do this upcoming week. I can't change the past, so why dwell on it? I do have control over how my second week goes...so that's where my energy will go.